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Finally a coherant thought from me about the future - Keeper of the Cages
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jazzbandmusic
Finally a coherant thought from me about the future
You have come here
in pursuit of
your deepest urge,
in pursuit of
that wish,
which till now
has been silent,
silent . . .

no second thoughts,
you've decided,
decided . . .
Past the point
of no return -
no backward glances:

Past all thought
of "if" or "when" -
no use resisting:
abandon thought,
and let the dream
descend . . .

Past the point
of no return,
the final threshold -
what warm,
unspoken secrets
will we learn?
Beyond the point
of no return . . .

and now I am
here with you:
no second thoughts,
I've decided,
decided . . .
Past the point
of no return -
no going back now:

Past all thought
of right or wrong -

Past the point
of no return
the final threshold -
the bridge
is crossed, so stand
and watch it burn . . .
We've passed the point
of no return . . .


So following my random breakdown in the post here I've thought and thought what to do.

I had a major panic attack this morning though when I looked at my calendar at work and saw that I had a one-to-one, which happened to be the one where I would have to confess as to where I wanted to study my AAT.

Anyway after seriously thinking about it and talking to my mum and a bit with my dad I've decided on a course of action.

SO tomorrow morning I'm going to phone my old boss from the Accountancy firm to book an appointment to talk to him about options, where to go, are there jobs there or anywhere he knows of that sort of thing. Then I'm going to sort out what to do in the next 6 months - traveling is the big thing on my list and whilst I don't want to go a lone I will if it's the only way.

I still don't want to let the people at work down, but I can't go on like this. I'm not happy and the more I do the worse it's going to get.

So I have a plan and we shall see where it leads us.

Current Mood: worried worried

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jazzbandmusic From: jazzbandmusic Date: May 18th, 2005 10:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks I need all the good luck I can get :D!

Will do, depends on what happens though.

S xxxxxxxxx
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jazzbandmusic From: jazzbandmusic Date: May 21st, 2005 02:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
OH MY! I'm jealous! I really should get round to talking to her! I miss my lessons, though mummy was all like no you can just play on your own, which is fun, but I like learning with bev. Eeee! September will be good!
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