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So life has finally hit the bottom or maybe it hasn't, maybe I've… - Keeper of the Cages
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So life has finally hit the bottom or maybe it hasn't, maybe I've just hit a ledge on the way down and I'm hanging on by a thread...

"Life has dropped you at the bottom of the heap"

You know when someone says to you it's been noted that you have been making an effort and all the rest, but because you were two minutes late signing in you are now going to get put in front of a disciplinary hearing and an official note is being put on your record you know that all the work you do and the amount of effort you put into it is worth absolutely F-All. I just hope that when I go to the hearing I'm not angry because at this point in time I am angry and there is no way for me to be anything other than angry.

I could understand it if I didn't do my work. If it wasn't up to standard. If I didn't give it my all. But to be told that I have been late by 2 minutes, when I explained that it had taken me half an hour this week to get into work when it should be a maximum of 15 minutes what more do they want?

I can't take it any more and the sooner I can leave the better I will feel.

Anger is never constructive when it's me. It starts really quiet and then just burns for a long time before exploding. Very few have seen it, but it is a spectacular sight I must admit! I don't want to go into the meeting and shout or say something I'll regret.

My manager still doesn't seem to understand the meaning of the word "vindicate" and keeps using it instead of "victimise" to clarify...

Vindicate
"1. To clear of accusation, blame, suspicion, or doubt with supporting arguments or proof: "Our society permits people to sue for libel so that they may vindicate their reputations" (Irving R. Kaufman).
2. To provide justification or support for: vindicate one's claim.
3. To justify or prove the worth of, especially in light of later developments.
4. To defend, maintain, or insist on the recognition of (one's rights, for example).
5. To exact revenge for; avenge."
Dictionary

Victimise
"1. Make a victim of; "I was victimized by this con-man" [syn: victimize]
2. Punish unjustly [syn: victimize]"
Dictionary

Slight difference. I think that I shall have to buy her a dictionary when I leave and highlight a few words for her.

Right I'm going to bed so I wake up early and leave at some stupid hour.

I need my calms! I need my Kathryn to tell me I'm an idiot! I need someone to take me out and get me completely drunk! lol!

Though mummy took me to see "Monster in Law" tonight and that made me happier - all shoudl see it. It's funny!

Night night my darlings.

♥ ♥

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From: hunting_orc Date: June 16th, 2005 12:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
http://www.empiremovies.com/movie-pictures.php?id=700

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Clearly, they're all mad. Leave them, my love. But talk to them calmly and rationally and remember to make a point of saying how you'd been deliberately coming in EARLY after the original message and you can't help the traffic.
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