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25 that's like almost 50 and almost 100! - Keeper of the Cages
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25 that's like almost 50 and almost 100!
Tomorrow is my 25th Birthday.

What a scary thought. I am going to be 25. I can't see myself being 25, silly as that may seem!

Tomorrow I've got the day off from work and I'm going to sleep the morning away and then me, my Mum, my Dad, my Brother and my Nanna are going to Northcote Manor near Preston for dinner and to stay the night. Can't wait for that, but I really wish that my Gangie were still here to come with us.

So far this year I don't think I've been dealing or moving on I've just been running and that hasn't worked for me and it didn't really work last time. I don't have the luxury of time to go traveling again for more than a week or two which really isn't long enough. I just need to find a better way to handle things.

I've lost focus you know. I could see my path and I knew what was going on around me and I was attached. Since February I've become detatched and I'm floating along bouncing off walls and not really connecting things until it's later. Awfully frustrating if you ask me, but I don't know how to stop it or fix it. I guess I'm not good at dealing with things like loss and the rest of it. Not that it's an easy thing for anyone to deal with.

Any way I'm tired now and I've got to go to sleep before it's the 6th. So I'll be off now and I'll burble some more later.

Love S xxx

Oh plus side of being 25...I can drive other peoples cars!!!!!!!!

I am half the age of the practice manager at work and I'm the baby by 5 years! the next baby is the baby by 10 years! That means like the vast majority of people at work are 15+ years older than me :D! Means all my stupids can be forgive as not knowing better due to my age lol!

Current Location: my bed
Current Mood: contemplative contemplative

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aigooism From: aigooism Date: July 6th, 2007 04:10 am (UTC) (Link)
Happy early 25th Birthday!!!!!!! *hugs*
From: jigglyfrog Date: July 6th, 2007 11:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
which i was worried about, and i knew really, and you need to talk to me, ok? it's not bad to miss him. of course you do - but you CAN'T bottle it up because it goes on forever and is just worse in the end. it's ok to do whatever you have to, to be ok again, no one's expecting you to be cheery and ok all the time - you just have to carry on and enjoy all the crazy random things that you love, and not do them to avoid stuff.

this stuff is harder when you're older, i think. i'm glad in a way that it was when i was still at school so maybe it wasn't as scary - but i can't think about, still. recent stuff is so much worse. so really, don't stress about making people uncomfortable or anything. life goes on, but you don't have to move on, if that means forgetting, just accept it and you have to face up to it, and it'll be less sad later. promise. *huggles*

also, i think you're getting itchy feet for travelink. me too. damned staying in a job for my damned cv. damned it! ;d

this is what cocktails are good for!! also cheerfulness. i think it's ok we get picked up at 11ish, okie day? be coming for you at 7, and we'll have a lovely time and you can have presents! yay birthday :D xxxxxxx
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