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Currently not feeling too good. Feel a bit faint and rather like I'm… - Keeper of the Cages
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Currently not feeling too good. Feel a bit faint and rather like I'm either going to be sick or cry. Maybe both.

Still feeling awfully numb and not real. Maybe that's because I knew it was going to happen, but still I don't know. Maybe I have a switch stuck somewhere and when it does come loose well things will be 'normal'.

Accounts is what I'm doing at the moment though so all is fine with the world.

Maybe I'm cold too as I just ache. I hate it when my arms and hands and knees just get heavy and ache like there's no tomorrow. Maybe there isn't one and then it wont matter. But then again there usually is a tomorrow which becomes today. Am not going to get into that debate as it can go on for hours.

Daddy and Uncle Al came home last night and I hid. I hid in my bed under the covers and pretended to sleep. Though it took me ages to go to sleep. I didn't want to see them, but I did. I just didn't know what I'd say and if what I did say would be wrong. I think it's harder to be here when it happens than it is to be miles away as you are with people and reactions take different ways of expressing themselves.

No idea it's weird

Back to work.

Current Location: My desk at work
Current Mood: blank blank

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